A glimpse into my daily life!! Day 53
Aug 30, 2018
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good morning much different on my face
alright so today I thought I'm gonna try
something I'm gonna see how this works
you know guarantee but if it works the
way I wanted to then I think I'm
figuring this whole thing out about
doing more follow me vlogs so that you
guys can see more of me and also the
family throughout the day
so I just thought well I'll start you
know right away into my morning kind of
routine so first things first I wake up
and usually I kind of just I'm I'm
really chill axed in the morning time
only because the babies sometimes are
still sleeping not all the time usually
Omar comes out the last of it
thanks that's right the last of the
group of sleepers but ok give me that
give it to me come on give it to mama
can you give it to mama and I can shut
it ok I'm busy and I need you to just
chill out ok yeah her might B's I swear
she's gonna keep them and busy or it cuz
he keep her keep them in business as
much as she plays with them anyways
so I'm thinking I'm figuring this whole
thing out with the whole taking you guys
along with me so this morning I got up
and I had breakfast already which I
didn't film that because I wasn't I
actually wasn't I didn't think I was
gonna do this but then I was like you
know what why not
why not try it you know what I'm gonna
far warn you like I like I told you last
night we are a normal family I do not
put on a show this is my life
and welcome to it so with that said I
cannot guarantee what is gonna slip out
of the corners
I can't guarantee what you're gonna see
but it's gonna be entertaining I'm sure
and we'll have a holiday
so anyways okay first things first
I just got another shower sleep mode so
that way my phone's not going off with
million times a day anyways so I just
took my shower and what what coincides
with my shower right now is so okay here
you go
and fYI I do not match but I just threw
everything on I'm not leaving the house
anytime soon and if I do then I met then
I match so you guys are gonna see me on
the non matching times as well as my
matching times then non perfect and the
perfect um anyways so how my showers go
is I shower daily there was a point que
espera I'm talking there was a time not
too long ago that I could not shower
every day and that was remotely because
I'm gonna shut this light off I know
it's gonna make it a little bit darker
but I don't want to kill my battery on
my ring light so I need a charge that
actually up a little bit anyways um but
there was a time where I seriously could
not shower every day it was too painful
it took everything out of me to stand in
the shower and shower and I had to have
systems from oli to shower and be able
to get clean and that was one of the
saddest times I think I've hit when I
hit my biggest was happening to finally
ask for help when it came to bathing
because I never thought I would get to
that point I never thought that I would
ever have to have
assistance in showering to keep clean
and anybody that is fairly large not
everybody has it but a lot of people do
have the extra belly on the bottom and
that is a very hard portion of your body
to clean especially if you have short
arms like I do
getting under there and really cleaning
properly is very very hard then you
include that with two c-sections that
now I have like no filling down there so
when I'm cleaning there has been a few
times where because I used to use it was
a like a wooden stick and how that got
one of those things call like a poof
ball or something on the top and I used
that and that worked I mean it got me it
got all the areas I needed um that I
couldn't personally reach but what
happened was after I had my c-section
with Ezra I formed a little the best way
I can describe it would be like a blood
blister underneath my my kind of like
right by my incision but my incision was
healed but the blood blister was there
well one day I was cleaning it and I I
wasn't aware it was down there because I
can't feel anything
and I busted it open and I remember
looking down and all I could see was
just blood all over the ball in the
shower and of course I freaked because I
personally thought I like rip my stomach
open something oh my god like what did i
do so I screamed for Olli he came in
he's like no honey but there is a sore
down there so we went straight to the
doctor and he Carter cauterized it and
it stopped and it healed up and went
away but since then I've always had a
really bad like anxiety about washing
down there with anything that I can't
literally fill because I'm afraid that
I'm gonna push too hard and do damage
down there so it was really hard for me
to allow my husband
to help me because I told him I'm like
you know I don't want you to feel like
you're my caregiver because that's just
not the case like I'm not I'm not
married to you to take care of me and he
was you know and I know he knew I was
uncomfortable not uncomfortable because
he made me phone colorful but just my
own personal issues you know I mean what
woman wants to have to be taken care of
and bathed when that's something
especially for myself I take care of
myself so well that to have that to have
that taken away from me was really
really hard and so okay
Ezra I am busy right now I did not say a
bad word but listen listen would you
like to go out with your dad yeah then
you need to go sit down please go go
look at the infuser go go look at the go
look at the smoke anyways so short story
it got to the point where even having
help in the shower and so it was still
really hard because my back so I got to
where I was taking like and again I was
one of those what that would take
showers two days two days two times a
day when I was on my cycle
I take anywhere from three to four
showers a day because I just don't like
feeling dirty and I always have that
anxiety that big people smell and I
never wanted to be that person that you
walk by in a storm you're like whoa that
girl needs to take a shower like I mean
that's just always bloody fear and so
but it got to that point where I
couldn't shower I did I seek no I always
changed like my undergarments and things
like that but I don't know honey
I always changed my undergarments and
and kept clean in that way but to
actually take a full-on shower it just
didn't happen all the time okay that's
right
stop okay then you're gonna go out
go go I'm trying to get ready for the
day and you're like really in our up day
me so anyways hopefully she'll stay out
for a little bit with her dad um but now
that I've lost a little bit of weight
it's getting easier again to get back in
the shower and you know so now I'm back
on my routine where I take my showers
daily and um and it feels good it feels
so amazing but with that and with
summertime I have been really struggling
with the chafing of my skin so right now
I'm dealing with under my breasts on the
side it's almost like my skin has torn a
little bit it hurts so bad and then to
wear a bra because I can't stand not
wearing one it literally is just it
burns so bad and under my stomach is not
Rashed at all but on the sides where my
stomach starts before it goes to the
hanging it's really like red and raschi
and I faithfully every single shower all
he does still help me because I need a
little bit of help but I'm doing so much
better washing most of my body myself
and there's just a few little areas that
I need a little bit of extra help on and
then when I'm done I dry my body off and
then he'll come in with the the blow
dryer and then we blow dry my areas that
I can't reach and under my stomach to
keep those areas dry because it's very
very very very important and the reason
I'm talking about this is because it is
something that could be very
uncomfortable for somebody to talk about
and for me I'm very open about it I'm
not ashamed of it I'm not shy of it
because it's life it's what I've got
that's what I've had to deal with and I
still currently deal with it and if I
can help just one person with the issues
that I'm dealing with why wouldn't I
want to share my story and it's painful
it's very very painful there have been
nights that I have not slept because of
it and
it gets bad but as long as we stay on
top of it usually we can keep majority
of it down and I haven't liked this
summer so far I really haven't had too
much problems that I haven't in previous
years but I was gonna show you guys so
every time I take a shower we dry off
well I dry I dry off he helps me
blow-dry my areas and then he always
faithfully puts cornstarch under my
belly all around under my breasts on the
sides of my breasts in between my you
know my stomach roll we always put this
on because this honestly is like a
lifesaver I've tried I've tried baby
powder and it just doesn't do the job
I've tried foot powders like athlete's
foot powder and to me that stuff burns
and the reason I say that's because when
I chafe I chase deep like I get cuts so
when that stuff gets into a cut holy
moley let's say that I want to dance off
that bed and scream so this is like the
best thing there's no scent to it
there's it's just it's nice and it
washes off nicely so when you know it's
shower day it just it's not stuck to me
and then I also use let's see if it's
still in here baby my daughter I also
use Desert Inn and I use that on the
areas that are really really really red
and that are just like really on fire
burning I will use Desert Inn as well so
anyways I use the Desert Inn and then
that helps with like the chafing and
stuff and then my daily like after I
take my shower I use just a plain old
Aveeno moisturizing lotion I've taken a
lot of your guys's
suggestions about my dry skin that has
helped so much and I could not thank you
guys enough for telling me about it
because and I still have some other
stuff I'm going to try I just I have
not gotten to the store to get the stuff
I did find clean Ali's room a stick
lotion up my nose that's great uh
anyways I found some of my face washes
that I used to use but I'm really
hesitant I put it in the shower I did
not use it today I am really hesitant to
use it because I have a mirror down here
so just so y'all know if I look down has
been looking into that um but I'm really
hesitant to use it because the last time
I used it um I broke out really bad so
I'm really like and then and I'm gonna
guys can see probably not but I got
whiskers starting my whiskers whiskers
so I'm gonna be doing a wax probably
tomorrow so when I do I'll let you guys
watch and I have Maya makes me wax his
eyebrows yes my 11 year old makes me wax
his eyebrows because he can't stand his
unibrow I'm like why not God gave it to
you he's like well then why do you wax
your mustache I'm like hey hey hey we
don't talk about that
so anyways then I just put on a mask
about hmm I do need to get some new
mascara
there's told Ollie this actually the
other day Mike honey I really need some
more mascara
he's like Nate out I'm like oh yes I did
honey
Mike you cannot deny a woman her makeup
he's like you don't wear makeup I said
well I don't wear what a lot of people
wear I'm like I could go and spend
hundreds of dollars but I think my
mascara is going out I think that's the
problem
so as our stuff in the Amazon
Amazon basket I was gonna check out last
night and I thought no I want to look
one more time make sure I got everything
that I need because I like to check out
and then be like crap I forgot
such-and-such and then all my stuff
comes in like all over the place and
rather than coming in when it needs to
so I'm just like no no and then I also
I'm so excited to announce so one candy
Fox I think you guys all pretty much
know who I'm talking about
if you don't you go check her out um she
did a haul a while back it's been a
while back and I checked out their
website it's called curvy curvy gals I
think I will put the thing in my
description the name of it the link to
any noise
um but hold on beauty thing - got one
anyways she did a haul a while back they
carry clothes from I want to say 0 to 6
X but mainly 5 X and it looks like
they're true to size that's what it says
their prices are very very very good
they're not they're not overpriced at
all I don't feel for you know large
clothes usually us girls are stuck
paying you know $50 a shirt and and
honestly they I don't even they think
they had a few items that were a little
bit more spin D but not a lot see I told
you guys I can't do two things at once I
start painting my skin um yes I know
I've got some of my my top i but it's
okay anyways
so I ended up ordering three shirts I
didn't want to order a whole lot until I
tried them myself what she ordered was
the most cutest stuff and it all fit her
really good but everybody everybody
likes their clothes to fit differently
and I'm very particular so I want to
make sure that the shirts are gonna
cover everything that I personally want
covered and that they're not too tight
because that's me
that's what I like so anyways I ordered
three things so I'm super super excited
to get those things and now I'm gonna
use this from the Dollar Tree I got
three of them I got a purple one this
one and I think blue pink so I got
purple pink and not when those are the
only colors they had but I love this
shimmering one anyways so I have that
stuff coming it I just got the email
last night that the items were being
shipped out so I'm except or duper duper
excited because I can't wait to try them
on so what I'm gonna do is I don't think
I'm gonna like technically do like a
whole I'm just only three items but
they make this most difficult way and I
did have in my basket shimmering
shimmering loose glitter if you guys
know where to get shimmering loose
glitter like this kind but not with this
kind but not having a little hole like
that let me know I really I really want
it so bad I absolutely love this stuff
it is amazing I love glitter when I want
to do my makeup I love glitter yes I'm
holding it really weird um I love makeup
but I don't like makeup if that makes
any sense so I like stuff like
shimmering stuff things like that
I don't like personal makeup like how do
I describe it I don't like I shadow that
it's got color because most people do
not and yes I put it on my cheeks too
okay that did not work the way I wanted
it to you know we're gonna walk around
with shimmering sticks everywhere um you
guys are probably thinking what in the
world is she doing um this is when I
tell you guys I don't know how to do
makeup I don't I think I do but I don't
anyways um but if you guys have like
Amazon carries it's a glitter glitter
and a wand I think it is um it's kind of
what I'm looking for although they're
selling their stuff for $25 the thing I
don't really want to spend $25 if I
don't have to on glitter it really don't
oh god no I look like a now I look like
a eunuch one oh good lord
okay now I've really gone out
Amy come on you're doing good with just
the eyeballs and then you just like
totally took it up another notch anyways
cuz I'm gonna be a glitter glitter Queen
this is what's fun when you don't have
to go anywhere during the day then you
can look like a clown and totally get
away with it because it's just your
family and they just know that you're
crazy so they just ignore it along with
my husband he just ignore these just
like okay Amy do do you wait look okay
um anyway so yeah if you guys have any
recommendations I know that Walmart has
like loose body glitter but I don't
really know like oh good lord are you
kidding me Walmart has some but the
thing with Walmart is that I don't know
if they have it in the store because I
was looking online so anyways then I
just put a little shimmy in me on my
lips oh hold on I'm coming who hit you
Omar hit you you tell them that's not
nice
like okay so that is that so that's okay
honey
so that's my kind of like if I'm gonna
get ready and I'm gonna like put makeup
on or whatever that's as far as it goes
that's when I say I don't know makeup
anyways okay
and then I just always I keep them up
here because Jeremiah has a tendency of
getting into my perfumes don't know why
but that is that's my son for you okay
I'm gonna close this curtain because I
guess my husband just hired a guy to do
the yards which is great and fantastic
because it needs it but I'm not trying
to showcase my room but now I'm like all
red maybe he won't start on this side
let's hope okay now to get up here on my
bed and now boy are you guys right now
you guys are immature so there will be
bumping um I hope you guys are all
having a fabulous day I'm gonna try to
put this your rent we'll see how long
before you guys go for him um I hope you
guys are having a great great day I am
feeling really good today like I feel
like I feel like good things are on its
way you know after I closed last night I
went out and I was talking to ollie
because I you know told him that you
know my mom canceled on me and you know
and she when I was talking to her she
was like you know this was last night
when she told me she that we weren't
gonna get together she was like you know
I just don't want this to be brought up
and like thrown in my face later because
you're mad that we didn't get together
and I was like it's not about that like
honestly it's not even like remotely
even a
all that I think I think it's just the
principle you know Monday she couldn't
get together with me because her tire
had a hole in it and well Sunday she
called me and told me she got a hole in
it so she wasn't gonna be able to come
to Salem on Monday I was like that's
fine you know understandable things
happen you know it's it's whatever what
am I gonna do cry about it but then to
like call and cancel again for the
second time and it's like you know last
year we were not on talking terms due to
some things that were between me and her
and we weren't on talking terms last
year for my birthday and I'll never
forget that day I remember all II am I
going and getting the mill and I really
thought that there would be a birthday
card in there at least a birthday card
just just basically to say hey I'm
thinking about you I love you no matter
what you know we're going through you
know you're my daughter and you know
I'll always be here for you at least
that's why I thought I would get but
when I yeah no it's fine baby what's up
right now but I mean oh so he's not
gonna do it no no why he was the woods
but he started talking I was like okay
how much he gonna cost me I was like 500
I was like how about 75 bucks he gonna
talk what side is he served on because I
have this open right now but I'll shut
it he said he gonna be back in 40
minutes I think he's doing some work
though he doesn't come like a frequency
he will choose place like that
like you know mix more sense to me it
would get couple hundred bucks
somewhere else so he doesn't do
maintenance no he will just clean and
you'll do your own messes you know
should keep it to its like keep his
number um anyways so I'll see you guys
week you'll guys will get all the
interesting conversations of the day um
anyways but you see if my family's not
used to that they're used to the sit
down video so they know do not come in
here when I'm videoing because you're
gonna interrupt no it's like no you guys
guys can talk okay um anyways so when I
didn't get a card it really it hurt you
know it did I mean that's what you're
thinking you're gonna get is something
from your mom you know at least your mom
and when that didn't happen you know I
really did feel let down that day but I
was just like okay you know just roll
with it there's there's nothing again I
can do about it but when it came to her
birthday I made sure and we're we don't
talk in terms at that time yeah we were
we were talking but I purposely did not
send her a card I did not call her I
didn't do nothing for her birthday so
when we didn't see each other again
until Mother's Day of this year and she
brought that up at breakfast she said
you know you didn't get me anything for
my birthday I didn't even get a card and
I said really
she said yeah and I said how does it
feel
she looked at me kind of like what what
are you talking about and I was like how
does it feel like didn't make you feel
good did it she was like well-known I'm
like no you know how I felt and she
looked at me she was like oh my god
she's like Amy you did that on purpose
and I said yeah I dished out what you
dished out and I said you wanted to
prove a point and I proved a point
and I said you know it hurts doesn't it
and she knew at that point that she
really must stop and you know you can't
go back and make up for the mistakes
that you make I would have never wanted
to go back and make up for not sending
her something
because honestly you know what I'm gonna
treat you the way you treat me and if
you are not going to recognize me at
least on my birthday come on now and you
know this year for her to technically
not even know when my birthday is
that's that's hurtful you know it really
is but it's like again I just have to I
have to pick my battles and is it a
battle I really want to fight because
I'm not gonna get anywhere with her
I really am not I don't think she's ever
gonna see my point of view and so chose
to leave it I'm gonna put these away but
I'll put him away in a little bit I
think I'm gonna go into the kitchen and
clean up because I know the kitchen
needs to be cleaned up um but anyways so
I think she knew when she forgot my
birthday this year like well not forgot
it but didn't even know my birthday I
think she knew it was just like oops
again but when I was talking to her last
night she was like well I just felt
really bad and you know I need to see
you and it's like Kate you have seen me
once once since last June so over a year
ago I've one I've seen her once she
hasn't even seen the kids since last
June and we're like already almost into
September and she says why I've been out
of prison for two years and you know
what the heck you haven't been up here
and it's like I'm not gonna travel with
my three kids on a highway that is known
for accidents to see you when you are
not making any efforts to even make any
time and when you do you turn around a
backlash it you know and so I don't know
I just I don't know where I'm going with
that whole relationship
how much time is too much time to invest
in something that clearly probably will
never be what first you want it to be
and second what it will never be you
know and that's kind of where I'm
thinking now it's just like I don't know
frustrating but it is what it is like I
have to just accept it for what it is
and roll with the punches and realize
that again
it will never ever ever be what I want
it to be because I want a mother I want
a mother relationship I want what me and
Esther have with me and my mom and
that's just never gonna happen
so I have to embrace the fact that I
have a daughter that God gave me a
daughter to be able to be for her what I
always wanted for myself and that's why
it's so key to me to always be there to
wipe her tears and to comfort her and to
always let her know she is loved and
valued and beautiful and just everything
because I didn't have those things when
I grew up I was never told you're
beautiful I never was told how valued I
was I was never encouraged to reach the
Stars
I was never none of that stuff ever
happened to me so for me it's like no I
want those things for Ezra because had
it been that I had what I'm giving to my
daughter maybe my life would have been
different in career spaces and you know
in the way that I deal with things and
cope with things today and so it's just
different but it's all learning techno I
mean basically that's how I see it it's
just it's all learning of what works and
what doesn't work for each and every
individual but for me it's me and us or
have a total different relationship that
I would ever imagine for what I got for
myself so there's that
I hate getting behind on dishes because
it's like the worst thing to catch up on
is the kitchen
and I love we've done do not pay
attention to me back because I haven't
had a chance to clean any of that and so
here's my little soap containers we had
we've gone through a few soap dispenser
things and I need to get a better one
but my lovely son Jeremiah has a
tendency to shut this just a little bit
has a tendency of breaking my soap
containers hey Jeremiah okay do we need
to go sit on our bed then you need to
stop we're gonna shut that so that
little bit easier for you guys just see
me and I'm not like turning like this
bright nasty color but anyways having a
clean kitchen though is and now that I'm
finally being able to catch up with
those things is a great feeling to have
but anyways back to myself two
containers so I am having to read my
soap container again because my ugly son
cracked my thing this next time that I
get one though I want to
I want to get Maxell real soap container
like we use this these funny things
because I was for the longest time using
well we had this huge thing sitting up
there and I'm like no no no ain't gonna
ain't gonna work just not gonna go for
it so I changed it to one of the baby
shampoo bottles that we were done using
and that worked for quite a while but
know that I'm kind of trying to get
things back in looking a good motion and
hopefully I I'm not about that so I was
using the clear ones but clearly somehow
my child so I'm just waiting and gonna
purchase a thicker plastic one are not
plastics already a thicker like real
dish store because they're obviously
ketchup and mustard containers
but anyways so I'm just cleaning out the
sinks for now because I cannot but I
hope you guys are enjoying this is kind
of gonna drop you guys down a little bit
see us vicious I love cleaning videos
though I can sit for hours you know my
rows that are made for you I mean some
boundaries that I cannot respect
and when you saw the face the way you
always do various forms aura
protect yeah it's high the time it took
to not need me anymore
life moves by and but I'm still hard and
long it gets better when you look at the
time but it's something are hard for the
rest of my life fans just another
regretting just another I'm saying after
such a heartbreaker just another mistake
still think about
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I play Martin I try into a place you my
friends tell me that I've got nothing to
those I pray that I can win this game
fun so that's when I know that get over
you oh yeah it's hotter than I would sit
- not me me anymore
life moves behind but I'm still holding
on it gets better when you look at the
time but it's something are falling for
the rest of my life and just another
regret just another upset after such a
heartbreak you just another mistake
still think about all the are we gonna
can you take me right back to when he
was
back to Anam eat well
back to when we were
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when we were young apple dinner
Mauro's that are made for you I mean
some boundaries that are cannot respect
you saw your fangs don't play you always
do
there is false or
yeah it's high the time it took to not
need me anymore
laughs more spy and but I'm still
holding on it gets better when you look
at the time but it's something are hard
for the rest of my life fans just
another regretting just another upset
after such a heartbreaker just another
mistake still think about
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I play Martin I try to replace you
my friends tell me that I've got nothing
so all of those I pray that I can win
this game fun so that's when I know that
I'm gonna get over oh yeah it's hot but
I'm sittin on me anymore
life moves behind but I'm still holding
long it gets better and
got the time but it's something I'll
hold for the rest of my life and just
another me great just another upset
after such a heartbreaker just another
mistake still think about all that we've
done can you take me right back to when
we were young
me well
knock my son out I still am looking oh
yes
I think it's go gone I think if someone
had said about the coloring but Omar
thinks that he is a great artist and he
likes to take the crayons fYI that's why
the crayons are gone because he kept
getting a hold of him and coloring on my
walls
and one day I didn't even notice that
one day I was sitting her I'm like what
is that look I'm like oh great
Jarek can you make me ice water please
anyways I'm just gonna rest for a little
bit and then start all my
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yes I need to get up I'm gonna dust fold
I got some of my blankets folded but I
need it for the rest of my blankets go
put the laundry way that's all my bed
fold the rest because there's more in
the Maya that's not my cup that's not
makeup it's right there anyways I need
to fold the laundry that's in the closet
or in the closet for the laundry that's
in the dryer and then I'm gonna shift no
don't pour that over there because
you're gonna make a mess and then I'm
gonna focus on getting all these clothes
over to his dresser that way we can get
that closet completely cleared out and
then we're just gonna use that closet
for like storage of important things
that we don't want like the kids getting
into at all like our tax stuff business
stuff things like that that really the
kids have gotten into a lot of because
they keep getting into everything so yes
yes huh okay so we're gonna use the
bedroom closet for that and then that
way I can go ahead and organize the hall
closet for oh my god that looks so bad
do the whole closet for like the towels
and the family games and things like
that that the kids won't be able to get
into because I'll keep them up high
enough but stuff that is like okay if
they did get into it's not like the end
of the world because like tax papers and
stuff that would be the end of the world
anyway so I'm just gonna stay here drink
some water and talk to my hubby and see
what the plan is and then I will check
back in with you guys again
and my husband made me a turkey sandwich
so I figured well I'll eat lunch while
I'm talking to you guys and I'm gonna
talk to you guys about something really
quick okay so I have been reading a book
that my counsellor is the one that will
my nutrition counselors which amazing no
I need that baby go ahead your eat it
go get your drawers anyways so both of
my counselors go by this same mindset
when it comes to like eating and stuff
like that and they're really into the
intuitive intuitive eating and so then
nothing told me to buy they wanted me to
buy it and I've had it for a while I've
started reading it anyways so they had
me buy this book I don't know if any of
you guys have ever bought it before I
started reading it a little bit just
barely got in and gotten gotten into it
but I yeah I only got to page 11 I got
it work almost year um but I think I'm
gonna well I am going to it's not a
thing I am going to start reading this
book every night I'm gonna take a half
an hour of my time and I'm gonna start
reading my book it's just low like right
here it says both sound and supportive
the nutrient volume will find an eager
audience and all those who are tired of
living in the land of forbidden foods
and the latest greatest diet fad you are
entitled to the healthy body you were
born with stop the food obsession and
learn to listen to what your body is
telling you intuitive eating will change
your life for good intuitive eating as a
valuable resource in the eating
disordered filled both with Clem Clinton
clinicians and clients so whenever I got
this on look like I put him enough I got
this on Amazon and it was 1699 but I
will say for just the amount of pages I
read it had already started changing my
heart on the way and that's why I am I
feel a lot more stronger with my change
this time around than any other time
because it's so much talking about like
not you know having self judgment and
you know allowing yourself to have the
things that you want learning how to
have moderation but being able to still
enjoy all the things that you want so
reason and bringing that up is because I
just wanted you guys to if it's
something you guys want to purchase and
we can all start you know reading it
together if you guys tell me like kind
of when you guys want to buy it that
would be something that would be great
and then we can like do a live
like once thinking like once a week do
like a live and we can discuss what we
are you know what we are learning
through the book I don't know I think it
would be something kind of interesting
and fun to do and so each day we would
have the same amount of pages so we'd
all be on the same pages and reading the
same amount so when we would come to the
live then we can talk about what we have
read and what has so far stood out to us
but we'd all be on the same pages so
we'd all know kind of what we're all
talking about so your baby's crying so
if that's something you guys are
interested in let me know I totally
recommend this book 100% and again I got
it from Amazon I will look for it and
link it in my description below but I
want to say it was 1699
on Amazon so my kids are fighting right
now so I'm going to jump off for a
minute and take care of them and then I
will check back out you guys I'm just
checking in with you it's been a little
while
I did another load of laundry I swear
it's like never-ending and then I think
that was it is that it Omar bah
No so whatever okay you're gonna have to
get it when we get home okay yeah
because I don't know which one you're
wanting anyways so we're just gonna go
for a little Drive go get me my tea it's
not really morning a tea and then we're
just gonna go for a little Drive and
relax for a little bit before we come
home and start our nightly routine
anyways um it's hotter than poo out here
today it's 86 I don't know where the
fall weather went but it disappeared
it went bye-bye real quick anyways okay
well I just want to check in and let you
guys know what I'm up to and what I'm
doing and what our family's doing oh
there's my princess girl my mom was
privy care and the boys I think that
one's gonna fall asleep real quick
okay first and foremost the most
important thing is you're gonna prep
your nails so I was gonna just use all
of what comes in the little sample pack
and I probably can but I'm also gonna be
applying gel to my other nails that
won't be having the color straight on
them because you only get two so I'm
just gonna make those as my accent nails
and then I'll be doing glitter for the
other part anyhow anywho anywho bear so
anybody that does knows her has done
nails or whatever um you know you have
to look at my sorry little my filer
pretty sad I mean anyways if you do
knows or if you have gotten nails done
you know you have to prep your nails
because that's what allows the the
adhesive to stick to so you just go
through you can buff them out or you can
file them I do either or whatever it's
not
so you're just all you're doing is shiny
arts I mean you are filing the shine off
now I'll use this one oh I'm gonna save
that one and I'm being very gentle with
my nails because of my little see my
nails are so rigid because I have oh
I've done too much with my nose my poor
nose are just shot like they're just
like come on Amy stop doing stuff to
them left me buried for a little bit but
honestly this Huff is just like nail
polish so honestly there is nothing to
it like it's not it's just as if you sat
and painted your nails the only
difference is is that there's no drying
time it's literally you put it on and
you go and that's what I like about gel
because you can just do the gel cure it
and you're done like you don't have to
sit and let it dry and do all that
because just people in general just a
lot of times especially in this life
time of today's life you just don't have
time to sit and let your nail polish dry
at least I don't my kids are like yeah
we're not gonna deal with this I'm gonna
push back my cuticles I have my own
cuticle pusher I use it faithfully
because it doesn't hurt my nose and my
cuticles as bad as the long stick ones
so and I don't know if I got one in the
sample pack but it's all good either way
I still have mine and I've got tons of
them from just over the years buying
certain know things and stuff they all
come with them nice thing about it is
the stuff that I've been using on my
cuticles it's taking so soft okay so I'm
gonna do the color street first because
I think that's gonna be the most
important it is stilled in a container
sold so you just cut it to release the
yeah sill ant or sill or whatever oh if
they do that they smell like they
literally smell like - nail polish okay
and then it just says that you watch how
easy this is so guys let's see if Amy
can do this okay it's just like nail
polish
seriously if it's literally what it's
like okay dude to do I'm gonna do my
ring finger and Melissa said you don't
want to put it on your cuticles you make
sure you don't put it on the cuticle
because it will go fit so just make sure
that you don't you just make sure that
it's on there really good like I mean
literally it lays like a darn sticker
that's literally what it's like
this is another thing she showed me you
just like literally are just like
pressing it down within your another
gnome and it's cutting oh oh I think you
guys I think I can get two nails out of
mine that would be awesome if I could oh
my gosh
don't be exciting okay see how there's a
little bit on the sides I don't know if
it's should we up very well girl I want
you two guys to see this see how it's
kind of like on the edges just a little
bit so that's where you're gonna take it
and you just
gently
it's on it is totally dry and that is on
how freakin easy was that like that is
like I am just like completely an utter
at shock because these are like awesome
I keep wanting to push it because I'm
thinking that you know a sticker there's
just no way that it's gonna stay but no
it really is that is oh my gosh I am
like okay so no okay I'm gonna just I
don't know if this is what I'm supposed
to do but I'm gonna try it I'm gonna put
it on okay so we're gonna do it this way
you guys I really don't know I don't
know what I'm doing but I guess we will
find out okay let's see if I didn't just
go for that
okay and then just the same thing you're
gonna go on you'll take your fingernail
and just kind of press against the
polish because that's exactly what it is
daddy's in the cooking because haha
making sure to bug daddy because mommy's
not out there but I told daddy I need a
few minutes to myself you don't think I
sir house any clue that I'm in here
because you guys all know she'd be out
my door
where didn't I
she would be out the door how'd she know
I was in here I'm really really like
loving this stuff you guys like I mean
that was so simple like literally I just
got two nails completely done and like I
said I got it done
using two stickers so as long as you do
it the way I just did it it would work
I'm just concerned about right there
it's kind of on my cuticle a little bit
right there I just don't want to
um I don't want it to come off because
this stuff is like bomb calm like I
don't feel anything
you know of course like I said this is
the first time I ever even touched this
stuff so if I can do this
you guys could so do it if it's
something you guys would be interested
in I just I absolutely you know and like
I said it's it's on and Melissa put did
hers like oh my gosh
forever and a life ago and hers are
still going strong she and she does she
does everything with her nails and she
doesn't she's never careful with them
and I literally never see her nails
looking like nothing bad like oh that
one's not gonna work crap oh I think I'm
gonna do my pinkie that was a quick a
quick fix
see this one was a thicker one because
it's made I think for like a thumb
martyr like a pointer finger but I was
able to make it into the two so we'll
see if I can do that with this one
depending on how like wide I can make it
be oops
Oh
come here Betsy come here again I don't
know I I'm pretty sure I'm doing this
right because they're staying on so you
just push it on like you would just work
it like you would do like nail polish or
anything else and literally it just I
don't know I am like in love with this
stuff like I was loving it when she put
him on like I seriously and I've been
watching tutorials like I was telling
you guys the other day I have been
literally watching tutorials I've been
doing it all and they're just they're
awesome the way that these things are
made oh I guess I should probably stay
in view here but it's like
that would be easy I wonder if that
would look weird I can't see what's
gonna happen
hold on is right hold on just a minute
please I'm busy
hold on Ezra
you just like file down the side like
the edges just to make sure like to make
sure that they're down but I mean I I
don't have anything up like there's I
don't feel like there's anything that
you know wouldn't that needs to come off
like it all feels like it's good
okay so that is that is it you guys
that's it oh crap
oops I forgot to use that part so we'll
see how long those last lasts without
that uh that little part in it but
anyways okay so that was all I did and
then now for my other nails I am gonna
do gel because I don't have time to let
any other nail polishes that a KY I am
loving this stuff because it's so much
more easier we went to uh Costco today
and got my melatonin and that way I can
sleep because at night time I can't
sleep I don't know why but I go through
these times where I get the worst
insomnia ever and it is like the worst
of my enemies that say good luck to
trying to sleep and I'm just
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and so in Hue as we went there we went
got the melatonin and then we did come
we came home and I came in here I folded
up another two loads of laundry I swear
I feel like that's all I've done today
is laundry honestly and then what else
did we do then I spend most of my
afternoon in here I just I did some
preschool prep because of the kids
that's gonna be exciting to show you
guys what I'm getting together I found a
lot of fun fun things to do with them so
that's gonna be exciting and so I did
that I worked on Mayas schedule for this
for fall for back-to-school and then I
talked to my friend for a little bit and
then after that I just Ollie and I had
talked for a little bit cuz
needed to talk to me about a few things
and I just kind of chillaxed and then I
was like oh you know why I need to go
and do this video because it's like much
namely be done oh no I forgot to put see
grunts put the clear over it okay let's
hope this isn't mess up all of it
Oh Amy you're doing you're doing great
I put the glitter on and forgot to put
the top coat over it and I cured it
let's hope that that's not gonna mess it
up anyways and so we talked for a little
bit and then I just I was like well I
need to come in and do my no video
because I have been wanting to get this
up for you guys you guys can see just
how simple and easy it is
there's no you can't mess up like I
really was afraid I thought oh my gosh
there's just this is like way too good
to be true there's no way I'm gonna be
able to do it and honestly there they
look like polished now mind you my nails
are short they look like poo right now
just because of my cuticle issue I'm
having and everything else but I mean
other than that I mean and that's not
color streets fault that's my problem
that I mean literally it's so much fun
and you don't have like I said you don't
have to even do jelly you can just
polish your nails another color if you
want I just do gel because like I said I
don't have time to sit and let stuff dry
all he's gonna be done with dinner here
pretty soon because he was like well you
have a half an hour I'm like hmm so
anyways I just I don't have the patience
to let no polish is dry so I'm just like
yeah not gonna happen but to be able to
do these it's so awesome and that way
you know you can have fun now still and
at the cost of like hardly anything
because honestly you think about it how
much do you spend to go and get a mani
done or your nails done I mean they're
done and they're so cute they're just
light glitter and then you've got the
accent
and I absolutely love it I could have
went over it one more time with the
glitter to make it a little bit more
thicker but I don't need to I mean I'm
totally happy with him like that so for
me because then the accent nails will
stick out better but uh for the price I
mean you think about it you're gonna pay
how much and then you gotta pay for tips
and you gotta pay for everything that
you're you're walking on to their pain
like 50 bucks and so at least I mean
yeah you're doing at home but it's so
much fun and you actually get three
colors for the price of what you pay for
the one may need to be done and not only
that but then you get to do in the
comfort of your house I don't know
that's just silly but um I just I'm
absolutely stoked about this stuff I
don't have time to sell it myself
I really don't and I absolutely want to
back Melissa on her business so that's
why I'm looking for my cuticle pusher
that's why I wouldn't sell it anyways
because I I don't have time for it and I
if I'm not gonna you know if I'm not
gonna sell it I might as well you know
give my business to somebody that
deserves it so yeah well than that it
was a really relaxed chill day I mean
you guys seemed to clean a little bit I
did not get all these clothes in the
dryer like I want our clothes in the
dryer see I'm talking dryer because
that's all I do was dryer um I didn't
know hook kit all these clothes in the
dressers yet I'll probably I don't know
if I'll have time to do it tonight if I
don't do it tonight I'll definitely do
it tomorrow but
tonight I really wanted to get
everything done tonight so that way
tomorrow I didn't just be like okay I'm
just gonna take a relaxation day and not
do anything but that's joke on me
because that just never happens we don't
have very many relaxed days especially
now that I'm trying to get stuff done
it's just like so anywhoo trying to
think oh so I got both messages that
both of the ladies received their
giveaway boxes I'm so so so excited one
both of them have not open their boxes
yet one was waiting because she needed
to she need to get some stuff done so
she could get it so she could have time
to open it and then the other one her
husband's me waiting making her wait
until he got home so he could watch her
open it and I thought that was really
special I was like oh my gosh how cool
both of them are gonna work on hopefully
hopefully they are going to be recording
themselves or have somebody record it as
they open the boxes so that way when I
call you know when I put my video
together with the box that I put
everything together in I can put both of
theirs in with their box opening so you
guys can see their expressions - the
boxes that they were racing so I am
super super super super excited because
I I just love doing this type of stuff
but I was getting nervous because one of
them hadn't receive their box yet and I
thought oh my god like I should totally
been there right now
so I was thinking oh crap I hope it
didn't like get lost in the mail or
something or somebody's truly enjoying a
box uh but she's in California so I'm
thinking and she's a little bit closer
to the fires the one that was took a
little bit longer to get her box so that
very well could play a big piece of why
her box took a little longer to get to
her but
I just can't wait till she used to open
it and I get to see their reaction I'm
hoping tonight I'll hear from both of
them because then I'll be able to get
that video up tomorrow and you guys will
get to see everything and then I'm
working to hopefully get another
giveaway together here really soon I am
things have been flying through my head
and I have not forgotten yet I still
have my beans all you did not say no but
I have not figured out a time that we
can do because I don't think it's gonna
be a thing that I'm gonna want to do
with the kids involved because I think
that it's just gonna become more of an
issue so I'm wondering if it will be
something that we need to do at night
time once the kids are asleep so I will
keep you guys posted because I really
really really want to get it done no
because I am like looking so forward to
it and I don't know yet what kind of
going to do am I gonna do like a husband
and wife tag or you know what I'm saying
like I don't know I don't know what kind
of questions or the way that we're going
to do it yet but it will definitely be
fun because always involved so and I
like to torture my husband he'll be
watching this feel like really okay so
yeah so I do have the bean challenge
still I want to do I've got the giveaway
that I'm thinking of what's the next
thing that I'm gonna do and win I
definitely would like to do one before
the holidays hit because I know that it
just is crazy for everybody so I
definitely want to do it before then but
then I know everybody's been been busy
boom because of back to school I got
mine in a week a week from today he
starts school next Wednesday and all he
just informed me that that day you
not gonna be here I'm like but it's
gonna be easier because the kids are
older they can walk last year and the
year before that oh it was a dread when
I had to take them to go drop off or
pick up Jeremiah because it was like we
had to I to carry a baby and carry
another one in take him out just like oh
my god you guys really need to learn to
walk but now that they walk and do their
own thing it will make it easier because
they just they walk to the car and they
can get all the way into their seats and
then I go through buckle them up really
quick and then it's just you know it's a
done deal so it won't be hard and it
will be nice because the first day that
Maya's back to school that would be a
day that I'm home with the kids alone
and so I will also be able to kind of
get things kind of in its own groove and
to be able to vlog a little bit more
with you guys I think that day because I
won't have so much commotion going on
with everything else going around me so
I think that vlogging is gonna become a
little bit more easier because I won't
be fighting with schedules so I'm hoping
and I really hope today that you enjoyed
and let me know if that's kind of more
of what you guys like to see as me I I
carry you guys with me through my day I
apologize did not vlog while we were in
the car and went to Costco and stuff
just it go too crazy and with traffic
and stuff I was just like oh I just want
to go home home so I did not vlog but
it's all good okay so you guys look
we're done done done so anyways it was
that simple you guys not hard at all
again something you guys were interested
in her name is H Kitty vlogs I will try
and get maybe a link down below if I can
if I can't there's her name
I would highly suggest you know maybe
trying them out I do know that there are
ways that the sellers can send if they
want like a sample so you can try it out
just like I did mine actually didn't
come from Melissa mine came from
somewhere else but it's totally okay I'm
still gonna go to most for my business
I'm for that so anyways I just wanted to
show you guys that it is that easy
and I love it and I couldn't be happier
with even the colors like that was
perfect
as soon as I got my little sample I was
like oh my gosh I know exactly what
colors I can do but yeah so now I'm
going to clean up my mess and then I'm
gonna go eat because that's what even
wants to do I'm hungry I am so hungry
I'm having fish and shrimp tonight for
dinner there hello my god I hope to god
I don't gain this week I really I really
do because my husband so I have been
craving this it's Egyptian it's like an
Egyptian okay there's two ways you can
do it because it's basically almost the
same well no it's not okay
in the Mexican culture they have rice
milk and that's not the drink I know
most people are thinking but it's right
you just make regular white rice and
then you and it's hot and then you put
milk in it and you put sugar and butter
and it's like it's so good I grew up on
that a lot and anyways but that's not
what this says so what he makes his rice
but then he also makes its like a cream
that he puts in it and then you put
pistachios and white grapes are yellow
grapes I don't know what I think there
were yellow grapes on top or yellow
raisins not grapes
white grape cereal or quite high seas
angry white raisins anyways so he makes
that well I have been wanting it so bad
and I'm just like oh but I went ahead
and I asked him I said can you please
make this like I really really want it
and he's like yeah I can and so he did
and the last two nights and I only have
it's a cup like just one measuring cup
and it's 160 is what we have figured out
with the calories if we're figuring it
out correctly god I hope we are so I
have eaten that two nights in a row
oh yeah amy is loving her dessert but I
mean to me I think it's better than
going and eating something else that I
would normally eaten so I'm not
complaining I really am NOT because it
could be a whole lot or not worse with
what I eat so anyways yeah I don't know
if I'm gonna have that tonight but it's
just been something that I haven't I
have been like enjoying a little too
much I think so we will hope that I'm
not gonna gain because if we do while
I'm blaming it on that because that's
the only thing I have been sticking to
other than that I mean my days have been
good my eating has vinkor that hasn't
been bad I'd been very cautious about
wanting to eat a salad I was gonna need
to sell tonight and I scared myself off
again so have not eaten a salad since
the night that I got sick but I know
it's not the salad I know it's the
avocado I'm almost positive it is so in
T whoo I'm think I'm gonna close here
for the night because I'm gonna go eat
dinner and then get the kids and their
jammies and spend a little bit of time
with them and then hit the hay sack
because I am tired and I want to rest up
for tomorrow so anyways I hope you guys
had a wonderful day today cannot believe
we were already halfway through the week
again like where is this time going it's
just like I remember as a little girl it
just seemed like time took forever and
now
it's like you're old you're fast I can't
keep up but anyways so I will talk to
you guys tomorrow and until then take
care
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